As the continuous rotation of the fan blows all of the smoke out of my room I sit here thinking about how randomly lucky I have been these past few months. Could of be for real this time? Could things actually being going smooth for once? I better knock on wood right about now or wake up. As the path of being a father is approaching I feel as if I should be making a few more stops before it gets here. Things to settle with family, friends, and lost ones all need to be taken care of once & for all. I feel as if this "onion" has almost been pealed to the fullest for the most part. Emotionally I feel normal once again and I am finally able to connect the dots to situations in my life I just couldn't address because I was weak emotionally.

     I want to just dump everything on my mind & just start typing away but it's early in the morning and having a steady sleep pattern is always a good thing. Am I night owl or a morning person?